Greetings, Lightworkers and Earth Angels and new visitors to my site,
This sounds like a heavy post, based on the title. Bear with me, however, please, because it’s actually a very uplifting post, one that helps us understand the terrible things that happen on Earth and why God allows them. (But it is a post that acknowledges the darkness on Earth so if you’re having trouble in your own life and you intuitively feel now that this post may be too much for you, please instead enjoy an all-inspirational post here, from New Year’s Day.)
First, a little context. For those who have been following my blog, tweets, and facebook posts, you know that a, I do not have TV anymore (I never made the digital switch back in 2009) so I watch my favorites shows on the internet which causes a delay because the networks don’t always immediately upload them and b, this past Friday March 30, 2012, was the c.d. release party for the album Michelle Glaser and I recorded, “Chakra Mirror Math Meditations: Guided Visualizations for Healing the Auric Wounds with Divine Love,” which complements the CMM book. One of the tracks is entitled, “Circle of Angels” and is a guided visualization that draws the listener into the Circle of Angels that perpetually surrounds the Earth and envelops it in a cocoon of divine love. We ask ourselves to imagine for a moment what life would be like if everyone on Earth started out each day by joining in prayer with the Circle of Angels for everyone else on Earth to be healed of all pain and sadness and filled with Love. Why would we do this? Because people who can feel Love — whose hearts are open and filled with divine love — don’t hurt others. Why not? Because they have no desire to.
This is the beauty — and logic — of forgiveness: forgiveness prevents future pain of the same nature. Here’s how: when we forgive — give the desire for another person’s ability to feel God’s Love to God, in the form of a prayer — we become the conduit for God’s Love to heal that person. Love goes from the heart of God through our heart and into the heart of the person we are forgiving the moment we give the strong desire (“Please, God, let this person be filled with Love”) for another person’s ability to feel and know Love, to God, whether we pray that prayer silently or aloud.
The beauty of joining in prayer with the Circle of Angels right away in the morning, upon rising, is that we are in essence pre-forgiving. We are asking God to fill everyone on Earth with Love which makes us the conduit for the healing power of divine love in the same way that (post) forgiving does, but in a preventative manner. Future pain is prevented but we have no idea what it is we have prevented … because it never comes about!
Last Friday night, after the album release party in Minneapolis, a friend and I were discussing this awesome power of prevention that forgiveness presents at Mickey’s Diner which is downtown St Paul. I always crave waffles, pancakes, toast, eggs — anything traditionally on the breakfast menu — after live events so (back) over the river we went to the famous greasy spoon/dining car. My friend and I both love animals and the conversation turned to people who exploit animals for profit through puppy mills, etc. I mentioned that using the COA track on the album for all people who hurt animals would be a great way to heal them and prevent future pain of the same nature and revealed that when I join in prayer with the COA every morning, I specifically ask God to heal all serial killers, rapists, pedophiles, child pornographers, politicians and CEO’s of all pain and sadness and fill them with love, in addition to the regular prayer I give for the happiness of everyone on Earth.
It’s hard to pray for people who hurt others — especially people who torture children — to be filled with Love. There’s an interesting reason why: for most people love is a reward. So we perceive asking God to fill someone who has hurt others with love as asking God to reward them. But love isn’t a reward. Love is an emotion.
When we love someone, we desire their happiness.
When we forgive someone, we desire their happiness anyway.
A great definition of Joy is “the ability to feel God’s Love.” When we say, “I’m so happy right now!” what we mean, at the heart chakra and soul level, is “I can feel God’s Love for me right now” and “I am filled with the desire for the happiness of others right now.” This is often why people who are in love don’t feel as annoyed by little things that used to really bother them, don’t feel snubbed as easily, and feel overall less irritable and more hopeful. They’re not really in love — love is in them; they’re filled with it, brimming over with it. Now is a good place to mention that God’s Love is the same as divine love is the same as unconditional love is the same as love. All love is God’s Love, all love is divine love, and all love is unconditional love. (Saying “unconditional love” is like saying “wet water” — if it’s not unconditional, it’s not love. It’s usually approval.)
But we generally want people who hurt others to be punished, not filled with Love, and definitely not rewarded. But what if loving them anyway could actually cause their healing and thus prevent future pain of the same nature because they would be so filled with love that they no longer wanted to hurt others? A good rule of thumb is that we hurt others to the degree we are in pain ourselves.
We hurt others to the degree that we are in pain ourselves.
This means that we hurt others with the same intensity and frequency we feel pain ourselves. Please let me very quickly prove this to you: have you ever been impatient with someone you love — when you normally would not have been — because you had a headache, cramps, back pain, or were experiencing some other physical pain? And then later you realized, “If I hadn’t been in pain (if my head hadn’t been throbbing, if I hadn’t had such bad cramps, if my back didn’t hurt so bad), I wouldn’t have done/said that” ? You probably have been impatient because of unrelated pain, although you may not have reflected on the cause after the fact (that you were in pain, that’s why you took an action that caused another person pain). Now, please imagine if you had been in agony, at a ten on the pain scale, when you lost your patience. How much more impatient and unkind would you have been during your reaction?
This brings us to the nature of evil and to how a recent episode of Criminal Minds ties into this post. Not all episodes of CM are horrifying, but many are, and this one, “Foundation,” was more horrifying than most because it involved the torture of children. When I got home from having that very early breakfast at Mickey’s with my friend after the event at LHSC, I decided to watch the latest episode of CM online and the idea for this blog post came into my mind, while watching it. My friend and I had just been talking about why God allows such terrible things to go on, on Earth, and I said that just as there are incarnated angels, here to teach forgiveness directly and/or by example, there are incarnated dark angels, and they are as compelled to hurt others as the incarnated angels are to help others. Going into politics is another way to hurt others, but in a way that multitasks the infliction of pain: with the passage of one unethical law, millions of people can be hurt, at the same time. The adage, “swipe of the pen, law of the land,” is a well-known dark angel/illuminati slogan, and public policy is a part of the 7/1 Authority/Survival chakra mirror, wherein people “up in” our 7th chakra of authority steadily influence the quality and quantity of life down in our 1st chakra of survival. The 7th chakra relates to government, religion, authority and autonomy, and the 1st chakra mirrors it by relating to survival, money, food, water, and shelter. Anyone who influences how, where, why, and through whom you get your money, food, shelter, and water is up in your 7th chakra, along with anyone who is affecting your quality of life and the quantity of it. So, all four — a doctor, a politician, a money-lender (e.g. a banker or creditor), and a landlord — could be up in your 7th chakra at the same time, influencing your quality and quantity of life down in the 1st chakra of survival. (And so could a serial killer.) Some people up in our 7th chakra are eager to literally take our life (end it) while others are gratified simply by making it not worth living.
In this episode of Criminal Minds, one of the profilers, Morgan, breaks through the defenses of Conditioned Emotional Response that a young victim has endured for years, due to the nature of his captivity underground. His name turns out to be Angel and the boy that the UNSUB kidnaps after Angel’s escape sees that someone has scratched a drawing of wings into the walls of the underground pit he has been thrown into. The new victim cries when he sees those wings, wings that Angel had carved into the rock wall years before he found a way to escape.
It was devastating to watch, and it begs the question, Why does God allow pain and suffering? and Why does God allow some children to be found and rescued and not others? The answer to both questions is that God allows anything and everything to happen on Earth as long as it falls into one of two categories, opportunity to forgive or opportunity to perceive Joy. Before Separation, when all souls were still merged into Oneness with God, we were all experiencing the joy, the bliss, of Oneness with both God and the other half of our soul, our soulmate, but without being able to perceive it, to know it, via the contrast that Separation allows. Separation allows us to perceive the beauty of Oneness by contrasting it with the moment of Separation before and after, especially before and after Oneness with our soulmate, through making love.
Opportunities to forgive allow us to perceive a different kind of joy: when we forgive, we love others the way that God does, not because they have earned it with behavior that we label as deserving it, but simply because they exist. This is unconditional love. This is love that can’t not love. God is love and therefore can’t not love in the same way the Sun can’t not shine. But as humans, we can — we can love others or not. And if we do, if we ask God to fill another person with Love, anyway, God will make our heart — our physical heart and our etheric heart, our heart chakra — the conduit for the healing power of divine love. To love this way is to touch the heart of God, to know and feel the power that created the entire Universe — the love that is the source of everything in existence — wash over and through you, during that moment of desiring Love. Then, what happens is that the person we are loving, and that God is healing through us, won’t hurt others anymore because they will no longer have any desire to.
Imagine now what it would feel like to walk around, all day, filled with the desire to hurt others. It would be a living hell. Sometimes I walk down a historic avenue in my neighborhood whose boulevard is dotted with trees so big and so beautiful that they reach for each other across the pavement, arcing over the cars and pedestrians below, as if to shelter them with God’s beauty. I am free from pain in every part of my body and so thankful for it, and the green radiance of nature, the light shining through the leaves and dancing on the sidewalk I am so privileged to meander down, envelops me in a cocoon of divine love. At these moments, I think of the dark angels, who are essentially cousins to me at the soul level, and know that no matter where they are on Earth, no matter how beautiful the light through the trees, no matter how magical the glints of sunshine bouncing off the flakes of falling snow, they can’t feel it. They can’t feel love. They can’t feel God’s Love. They are filled only with the desire and the compulsion to hurt others and it is then that I realize how lucky I am that I happened to be created by God to love others, and not to hurt them, when there was an equal possibility of the opposite.
We are not to pity the dark angels, but we are called to empathize with their plight. Without them, the opportunities to forgive that they present — which are the only way for us to experience loving the way that God does, not because anyone has earned it with behavior that deserves it, but simply because they exist (which has the added bonus of healing them, which has the side-effect of preventing future pain of the same nature) — would be very scarce.
I asked earlier, What if you had been in agony, at a ten on the pain scale, when you lost your patience when dealing with someone you love? How much more impatient and unkind would you have been during your reaction? Incarnated dark angels are in pain, all the time: every waking minute of every day. Their existence is its own torture. And the truth is that it’s unfair. It is an injustice that we as lightworkers can feel God’s Love so intensely and they cannot. And people who hurt others — especially those who exploit children for profit — are all filled with the most painful emotion there is: not being able to feel God’s Love at all. We could call this anguish, torment, agony or one of many other synonyms, and, as highlighted above, we hurt others to the degree we ourselves are in pain. That’s why they hurt others, so frequently and so terribly: they were in pain at the moment they took an action that caused pain. We can label them and their actions as evil, but after that, let’s ask God to fill them with Love and become the conduit. A great way to tap back into the heart of God, especially while watching the news or any movie or TV show you find making you uncomfortable and influencing you to lean toward vengeance, is to ask God, “Please, God, make me the conduit for divine love. Make me the conduit.”
Now, here’s an amazing thing: as more and more people who hurt others are forgiven and pre-forgiven, they will be filled with love, and, filled with the second most painful emotion on Earth: regret. The ability to feel regret is one indicator of an open heart. When the heart is open, we feel all emotions more intensely, including pain and pleasure. To put this in perspective, when we as lightworkers feel regret, we usually apologize, immediately, and take action to make some kind of amends, and inform the other person or people involved that we didn’t mean to hurt them. Why? Because we are compelled to make the pain stop because pain hurts when the heart is open and regret is pain. (Regret is empathizing with the actual or potential pain caused by our actions, even if we will not be feeling that resulting pain ourselves.) Imagine a criminal waking up one morning, healed by the power of God’s Love, and filled with remorse (regret). This is a person who would not only want to stop hurting others but feel compelled to turn themselves in to the authorities and confess. In short, they would feel the same overwhelming desire to make amends that a lightworker or anyone else with an open heart would feel if they took an action they regretted.
Here’s a great example of this really happening in California in 2002. The video below is the Dateline NBC coverage of the murder of a young 21 year-old man in 1997. In prison, the man convicted of the crime found God — or rather, God found him — and he was so overwhelmed with the need/desire to make things right, that he wrote to the victim’s parents, confessing his role in the homicide. What makes this story all the more fascinating is that the killer was convicted on purely circumstancial evidence and could very likely have been acquitted if he had appealed the verdict.
But he couldn’t keep quiet. He was alone, in prison, someone acted as the conduit for divine love for this young felon, and his heart was opened; the moment that happened, he became as compelled as any lightworker to do the right thing, step forward, and take responsibility for his actions.
I’ve had lightworker friends who are curious about why I watch these crime shows and I think it’s because I was a missing child and later became a found child, thanks to law enforcement. I love justice as much as anyone, I simply define it differently from most people, that is to say, within the context of Mercy and outside the paralyzing constraints of vengeance. It is interesting to note that our prison system will transform as the collective 4th chakra opens. Prisons will become storage containers instead of punishment buildings. We as a society will simply keep our most dangerous members contained, separated from everyone else, not to punish the people inside, because, remember, they are already in the worst hell on Earth there is, a place of being unable to feel God’s Love at all, but to protect the rest of society from them, from the danger of their presence. As we forgive more and more, the people inside will be healed of all pain and sadness and filled with Love. And as we pre-forgive more and more, fewer and fewer crimes will be committed in the first place. As for all the cold cases and unsolved mysteries, the light of truth will shine brighter and brighter as humanity’s heart opens with every desire for Love we give to God.
I invite you to join in prayer with the guardian angels of all law enforcement for God to fill their hearts with love and their minds with clarity and truth in order to help them find all missing children and adults and close all of their open and/or cold cases, and to join in prayer with the Circle of Angels that perpetually surrounds the Earth and envelops it in a cocoon of divine love for everyone on Earth to be healed of all pain and sadness and filled with Love.
Snow Angel ^i^
April 8, 2012